kind of got accidental high tonight. i played with a hedgehog. it was so fucking cute. i left my date to buy some drugs. i have no idea what’s going on here. i hid the drugs in my box of vegetarian bean burgers then cooked a bagel.
Ladies, That's a Deal Breaker!
I went on a date with this guy tonight. It was my third date with him. I’m so not in love. I went to dinner with some actors. I learned at dinner that I really don’t enjoy hanging out with actors. In the middle of our meal the guy said, “I really like this song.” I tuned out the noise of the restaurant and tuned into the music. The actress starting singing. The song...
I cannot write what I am supposed to write so I am...
Today I forgot that one of my classes was cancelled. I walked into a dark room. I texted my friend, asking where the class was. I felt unintelligent. Then I felt as though I had wasted my time in my office space when I could have been back in the skinny bed of my apartment, sleeping. Last night I got a little tipsy at a bar. I went back home and fixed myself a very strong gin and tonic. My...
I hate looking at my own face in the mirror
When I look at my face too much in the mirror, I begin to analyze it. I feel like my face is too masculine for comfort. It makes me feel inadequate. I think that my face should look feminine, but my features are too small to convey the proper gender expression. I don’t think I will ever be feminine enough for my biological destiny. I don’t believe in biological destiny so much. I...
Essentially poetry, if it is poetry, does not lend itself to simple readings, to...– Adrienne Rich: The 1989 Fresh Air interview (via nprfreshair)
upirdown: “Love Is Like A Bottle Of Gin” - The...
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god gets his styling advice from seventeen and lucky magazine. buy buy god approved. braids are so totes in this season look at those angels.
got back from the bar it was david bowie night who knew? now watching america’s next top model. it’s brits vs. merricans to make the playing field more even they moved the models to canada and for their photoshoot the models are getting covered in organic maple syrup. it’s okay because it’s organic!! that means it’s not demeaning or wasteful!!!
Things I Did Not Update My Facebook Status to Say
It’s starting to feel like Franzia season again. Or is it just me? I feel like I have groupie-wanna-be stamped on my back. I’m not sure if these wanna-be musicians can see it, but they act like it. There is a girl next to me at this Star Wars lecture live blogging via Tumblr. She used “then” instead of “than”. I wonder if it would be too rude to tell her. ...
Return of William Fitzsimmons
I am only writing this story because everything is wrapping up into a neatly packaged circle. She had just broken up with her boyfriend. She was devastated. She was a hot flying disaster. I did the best I could, fulfilling what I believed to be my role at the time. I said yes to everything. I delayed my homework in order to make sure she didn’t go completely insane. I was happy to do so,...
Poetry is not a healing lotion, an emotional massage, a kind of linguistic...– Adrienne Rich
A Valediction Forbidding Mourning by Adrienne Rich...
My swirling wants. Your frozen lips. The grammar turned and attacked me. Themes, written under duress. Emptiness of the notations. They gave me a drug that slowed the healing of wounds. I want you to see this before I leave: the experience of repetition as death the failure of criticism to locate the pain the poster in the bus that said: my bleeding is under control A red plant in a cemetery of...
I have such beautiful, amazing friends. Got a package from Germany today that contained blowing bubbles. This makes my day. I love that my love of bubbles is transatlantic.
Alcohol I Have
1 liter of rum 1 bottle of gin 1 bottle of cucumber vodka 1 box of wine 1 bottle of sangria 1 bottle of apple wine a partial bottle of schnapps a shot of coconut vodka Tonight I am going to get drunk and clean my room, I think
On being called a lesbian
When most women go out during the weekend, they get called “whore” or “slut” or some other hateful term. I detest these terms. I believe that they are used to gain control and power through degradation. Luckily, I manage to avoid these specific labels. This is because I am called “lesbian” instead. For the record, I am not really a lesbian. For the record, I am...
I feel like I am a character in a movie but I am...
I laid on the bed and told him that I feel like a character from a television show. I told him that I was terrified of not being viewed seriously and that sometimes I don’t feel like my life is my own. I told him that I view myself as a detached sidekick that skewer the novels I love to read. I couldn’t tell him that sometimes I have a wheel of narration that flows through my head. I clean up...
theavc: Memoryhouse is today’s A.V. Undercover artist, covering The Police’s “Every Little Thing She Does Is Magic.” We hope you will enjoy it.
fact: i am bored and uninspired. this feeling is kind of awful.
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daveschilling: For a blockbuster motion picture to impress me these days, I need to learn something. I’m not satisfied being visually fellated by a cornucopia of gratuitous explosions. I require more than just severed limbs, robots that turn into cars that turn back into robots or the occasional sexual innuendo;…
what my facebook status says and what i actually...
i still feel like a victim my social profiles were hacked the pictures of him deleted my phone carried no contacts they were grains of rice lodged in ears after weddings what did you say? cross the road once to make sure the door was locked twice for paranoia three times for desperation sit here finish this wine he stole my rocking horse to use it as a chair
What is meant here by saying that existence precedes essence? It means that,...– Jean-Paul Sartre (via worldchromas)
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fingers slip on buttons “I HAVE LOST CONTROL” ctrl+alt+del &&***$$#V#SOWHAT(@HT no it didn’t matter fell out of the disk memory out seizing twisting in space drunken earthquake hit me here like that together forgot all connotations existential forethought WHY
Each time my heart is broken it makes me feel more adventurous (and how the same...– Meditations in an Emergency (via rightorder)
“Saw four lesbian couples holding hands today and thought of you haha” -Text from one of my amazing friends
A seminar on outsider music or a seminar on spoken word?
I think it has been a month since I’ve cried in public. Pretty sure this is the longest time within the past 8 months. SCORE!